3 posts tagged “life”

sometimes we close our eyes and just listen to the echoes of our hearts. We all fall in love and there times that we love so much that we lose ourselves in our own emotions. More often than that, we wonder why there are love that grow and love that grows cold.

We start to search for answers, and try to find where love has gone wrong. But in the end, we find ourselves where we started. we cannot question love when it has its own reasons. Love will alway be as it always has been, silent, mysterious and deeply profound.

Many of us believe that love is forever, that love never dies, only to be disillusioned in the end, when we find our hands empty and our hearts longing. We've mistakenly looked at love as a need to be fulfilled. But love is only a gift given to us. We should not hold it in our hands for we may never find the strength to let it go when it decides to leave. We should only embrace its warmth and glow while it lasts, and then freely open our arms when it's time to say goodbye.

When we fall in love with someone, we don't want that feeling to end for it is everything we are and everything that we wanted to be. We pray that love will stay and grow in our hearts. But if it doesn't then we should never let our lives be taken by it for life should not end where heartaches being. There is always a reason why we have to move on. When we have to say goodbye to the feelings we wanted to stay forever, let us not wave our hands with a heavy heart, for love will have to set its wings free and fine a place where it belongs.

we may have lost it, but then again when we close our eyes and listen to the echoes of our hearts, we will hear that feeling resounding silently forever. Then, we'll know that it has never left us, for the good that we have become because of love will aways stay. It will always be there reminding us that we should be thankful and happy not because we have lost love but because for once in our lives that feeling lived in our heart and made us happy. ~ Joe d' Mango.

Ilang araw pa lang ang nakalilipas mula ng tayo'y huling nagkita, pero bakit nami miss na kita? Kelan kaya tayo magkikitang muli? Naalala mo ba ako? Nami miss mo rin ba ako? Feeling ko gusto na kita? Gusto mo rin ba ako? I text mo lang ako at kumustahin, masaya na ako, gusto kitang tawagan, gusto kong marinig ang iyong boses, gusto kong sabihin sayo na nami miss na kita, gusto kong marinig na nami miss mo rin ako.

Ano ba tong nangyayari sa akin? hindi ko maintindihan, gusto kita pero hindi ko alam kung gusto mo rin ako? Ang gulo...

"When we fail in our relationships, we ask ourselves what went wrong. There are times when nothing was wrong. Sometimes love just naturally fades away and this happens to people who are simply not meant for each other. I know it is difficult to comprehend why relationships suddenly take unexpected turns. But, it always happens. People we treasure are taken away from us for a reason. Sometimes we have to stop asking why and just accept our fate. If there is certainty in that end, then we should stop being bitter and just be thankful that for once, we have loved and shared our life." - Joe D' Mango

Ang galing mag advice ni Joe, para bang ang dali lang tanggapin ang lahat. Pero siguro kung sa kanya nangyari yun, di nya rin ang alam ang gagawin nya. Oo masarap yung feeling na may nagmamahal at nagke care sayo, pero kakambal naman nun eh sangdamakmak na sakit at drum-drum na luha. Alam ko dahil napagdaanan ko na rin yan. Yung tipong pag gising mo sa umaga ang ganda agad ng mood mo. Naka smile ka kahit wala naman dahilan, yung tipong mukha ka ng tanga, lam mo yun?

Matagal-tagal na rin nung huli kaming magkausap, nung huli kong maramdaman ang mainit nyang yakap, nung huli kaming magdesisyon na tigilan na ang lahat, masakit mang tanggapin pero alam naming pareho na wala nang second chance. Matagal kong dinamdam ang mga nangyari, hindi ko nagawang maka move-on agad, araw-araw sa loob ng mahigit limang taon, sya lagi ang naiisip ko hanggang sa panaginip ko. Gusto ko syang Makita at makausap pero baket pa, kung muli lang akong masasaktan at luluha (naks!)

My friend once said, “siguro kaya ka ganyan kasi wala ka pang naging bf after nya” hindi rin, kasi I’m open naman for possibilities, meron din naman dumating na iba, problem lang was I find it hard to completely trust ‘em, nagkaron ako ng takot to take the risk kaya hindi natutuloy. Ewan ko, siguro ako lang talaga ang may problema. Pero…that was before…

Earlier this year, after talking to my friend, narealized ko na ang dami kong sinayang na opportunities at kelangan ko na talagang mag move on. Sabi nga ni Joe ‘don’t pin your hopes on someone who doesn’t love you anymore, there will always be someone more deserving of your time and attention”

So I decided to put an end to my kagagahan. I let him go na, after so many years of keeping him to my heart I finally decided to let him go. Balak ko pa nga sulatan sya eh, pero sa blog ko na lang ginawa mas ok eh! Ang sarap pala ng feeling na finally pinakawalan mo na yung matagal mo nang dinadala sa dibdib mo. Para akong nabunutan ng tinik. Natuto akong intindihin yung true meaning of acceptance. I've learned to accept the fact that He and I were not meant to be together. I've learned to accept my fate and stop living in the shadows of his memories. Lagi ko na lang iniisip na meron pa rin nakalaan para sakin. I’m giving myself a chance and I know love will grow in my heart again.

From time to time naalala ko pa rin sya pero yung feelings ko para sa kanya, wala na, parang yun sa kanta ni Lea S. “I remember the boy, but I don’t remember the feeling anymore”